I have been contimplating writing a blog for quite some time. I have tried writing in a journal but failed. I love the computer and know that I can get it updated and post at about any time so am really hoping that this will work for me. :)
I am not quite sure where to start so I am just going to....I have suffered for many years with chronic migraines. I feel like I can classify it as chronic because I get them EVERY day of my life. I have been seeing my neuroligist for quite a while (meaning I am have no idea of how long). I have tried numerous meds....to no avail. :( I also tried chiropractor and this year, botox. Nope, no releif. I rarely feel like going anywhere or doing anything. I like to think that some day, soon, I will get relief. I never let these migraines keep me down. I still get up every day and go into work and stay there. Believe me....a nap would definitely make my day if I could actually go home and relax. My only relief is Relpax...this is a med I take when I need the relief, when I feel the migraine coming on. I have always called these my miracle pills. I used to savor them....so i would actually wait till they were really bad before popping a pill. That was back in the day when they were like a menstrual thing, the good ol' days. Now, there is no in between time, they are EVERY day. They are a nightmare. They rule my life. I hate them. I pray often for a remedy. Some day there will be something that I try that will make them go away.
Currently, I am coming off of Celexa. WOW! No way would I have ever gone on this medication if I would have ever known that it could possibly make me have these withdrawl symptoms:
brain zaps, nausea, headaches, crying spells, abdominal pain, painful & stiff joints (more so than normal)
My kids....after a challenging summer, I finally have Courtney to a spot in life where I am starting to trust again. It was a rough summer (never problems before that...her life had consisted of dance, dance & more dance). She is getting good grades in school and we have been discussing college. She is thinking nursing or a dental hygentist. We are going to meet with the school counselor to weigh out some options. She has a pretty low gpa and also a ACT score that she is not proud of.
Brody...huge challenge. Every day is a new one (challenge) with him. He always thinks that he needs to get what he wants. If he asks for something he thinks that he should get it.....right now. Most things are not even something that I could remotely consider. Everything costs money (and not just upfront) and then he responds by saying that he will start helping out. He doesn't help out when asked. He says that I need to tell him that he needs to do something...I explain that he needs to do what is expected not what is asked. I don't go to work everyday and be told that I have things to do. I know what I need to do and I get it done. Simple. He has a real tough time comprehending this. :( He struggles with homework. He doesn't want to do it. Ever. Some day I will get it through to him how important it is.
My husband....he has transferred to a job at the bottom of the US and we are at the top. It is tough. We have always done everything as a family so me doing it alone without him is a struggle. This is when it comes to household things, kids, just being a wife. I know that it is only temporary but it is tough. We will be together permanently come next June - after Courtney graduates. This summer I had to get our house ready to put on the market and that took all summer. It was put on the market and sold in 6 days. We move into an apartment next weekend and close the week after. This packing....sucks! I hate it. Some of our stuff goes to Tulsa for Kevin and some to storage and some to the apartment that we are moving to. Ugh! Packed all day and as I look around my home (that looks like a tornado hit it) I think of all that is left. Double UGH! I keep wishing it was 2 weeks from today....house would be closed and I would have my husband here (although this trip is only just few days).
As I close for my first post to my blog I have to have commitments/goals....today's is:
*Keep writing
*Keep calm with Brody
*Keep on packing
Till next time....I guess this is it for tonight!
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